Hello, welcome to my blog. Here you will find plans, diets, and other information about weight loss; as well as my opinions about pro ana and anorexia topics. You are free to leave at any time, and there is plenty of content which you will find triggering, so leave now if you're going to cry about it to me later. No one is forcing you to be here.
Sunday, December 6, 2015
Different Methods of Restricting
Eating one big meal/once a day (intermittent fasting): This schedule is often used by those with a busy schedule which allows them to avoid being confronted by many food related decisions.
+ easy to stay within a low limit, allows you to fall asleep feeling somewhat full, 'normal' sized meals can be had with family or significant others
- requires 18-22 hours between meals, night binges
3-4 Mini meals/day: For those who are surrounded by food through the day, controlled meals to keep from binges.
+ variety, normal eating timing can continue, 'always eating' just small amounts
- one big meal could lead to disaster, constant temptation
Repeated fasting: Fasting 1-2 days, with 'break' days (limited or free calories). This system takes a lot of control but often leads to the binge-fast-binge cycle.
+ rapid weight loss, temporarily relieves binge stress
- requires a lot of control, easy to fail
Each of these systems can be used with different levels of intensity. Personally, I'd recommend the first two over the last, but all are effective.
Monday, September 21, 2015
Manic Autumn
But there is a manic crazy, a drive that incites us to restrict in the fall, especially for those returning to school. There is no consensus on whether it's the feeling of a fresh start, the relief from the heat, the reemergence of hoodies, or the freedom of being out if watchful eyes; it's likely an individual combination of these things for everyone. But we all feel it. There's a need to plan; meals, calories, diets, goal weights. "Get skinny for Halloween/before Thanksgiving/to go on a holiday trip/to eat Christmas dinner without guilt." We know the drill. We know our reasons.
Saturday, June 27, 2015
How To Eat Less at Social Meals
1. Serve yourself. Instantly, by making your own food choices, you have control over how much you will have to eat.
2. Don't flat out refuse to eat. This will draw so much more attention than if you made yourself a little plate.
3. Just one. One scoop, one handful, one slice, one serving, don't take a large amount of any one thing. Don't go back for seconds, ever.
4. Skip the condiments. That one spoonful of mayo just cost you an entire cookie.
5. Don't eat your favorites. If there is a particular food item that you really like, don't even get a little, because you will want more later.
6. Always be doing something besides eating. If your cousins are throwing a frisbee around, or the tv is on, or there are people you can talk to, find anything else to be doing. People won't force food on you if you are occupied.
7. If someone offers you something or hands it to you, you can take it without eating it. Trying to deny any food that comes your way is a flashing sign that says you are avoiding food. No matter how clever your excuses are, just take it without arguing, you can toss it or give it to someone else, you don't have to eat it just because you accepted it.
8. Have a drink in your hand as often as possible. You won't look like you are participating in the meal if your sipping a diet soda.
9. If you are at a restaurant, skip the appetizers, eat the salad or the soup, engage in as much conversation as possible during the main course. If you have to order your own dish, instead of ordering a salad and making it obvious you are dieting, order something you don't like and don't want to eat, then you won't want to finish the whole dish. Also, tell people it tastes great and offer as much away as possible. Oh, and don't touch a bread basket with a ten foot pole.
10. If you are sitting at the family dinner table, eat slowly enough that someone else finishes before you before mentioning anything about feeling full. Remember, you don't have to clear your plate, even if you are the one to serve yourself.
11. Cover most of your plate with salad, rice, or potatoes, then add the main dish on top of your base, then it will look like you've taken more of the main dish.
12. Skip dessert. Say you'll take it to go or that you haven't had a sweet tooth lately and sugary things make you nauseous just thinking about how sweet they are.
Friday, June 12, 2015
What To Do When You Binge
1) The weight is temporary. If you weigh yourself immediately after bingeing, the number is horrible inaccurate. Not only is the weight of the food you ate there, but water weight caused by increased sodium making you weigh more. The morning after, you will see a higher weight until you pass the food wastes.
2) It takes 4 to 6 hours for your body to begin absorbing those calories. If you try to burn all the calories you ate off immediately after after eating them, you will not only disrupt your digestion, you will also do nothing to change how many calories are stored. 6 to 18 hours after eating is when your body will be burning of storing those calories. That is your time window for burning off all the calories you binged on.
3) Don't take laxatives right away. Most laxatives work best on an empty stomach. Taking them on a full stomach makes it more likely you'll experience cramps, gas, and bloating. Also, if you wait until your stomach is empty, a regular dose of lax will work just fine.
4) Don't try to fast the next day to counteract today. While you are convinced you never want to eat again, you are more likely to binge again, so don't make any changes to tomorrow's food plan. It's also easier to keep up with diets if you don't restart them every time you mess up. There's nothing special about the order of the calorie amounts in diets, so if you mess up a few times, there's very little you can do to change how fast you'll lose.
5) You don't have to weigh yourself the next day. As much as you want to know the damage done, you don't need to stress yourself out about it. You can skip one day of weighing yourself, do better the next day, and see a more accurate number the day after, panic attack unnecessary.
6) If you get stuck bingeing several days in a row, try setting a higher calorie limit and ease back into restricting. It can take a few days to get back on track, and if aiming for a low number is causing you to binge, then stop trying to restrict so low.
7) If you don't already purge, don't start. If you are not addicted to purging, stop. If you already have a habit of it, fight it. I'm 17, I've been purging for 4 years, and I have lost four teeth from it. I have had two root canals, my tonsils removed from infections, I have a stomach ulcer, and I have sores in my mouth which never heal. Stop purging as soon as you can. It ruins your life and I will never encourage someone to purge. In the words of Marya Hornbacher, "I'd rather starve than spit blood."
Sunday, May 31, 2015
Meal Plans!
Monday, May 25, 2015
The Real Anorexic secret
Saturday, May 23, 2015
Pro Ana blog, I resurrect thee
Hello anyone who is actually reading this. I have know my blog gets some reads, and I just never post, but I'd like to talk a little about some things that have happened to me.
I got put into outpatient therapy in a last effort to keep me from the psych ward. I've done pretty well recovering and relapsing and playing the game. I have realized that I think I might just be a little too jaded for outpatient. I can already read his (my therapist) whole process structure. I don't need someone to talk to. I don't need someone who wants to make me lead the session.
I've also recently ended high school classes and I'm graduating on June 1st of 2015. I've spent my first two days of freedom smoking weed and going to college meetings. I need to begin studying for my compass test which sets the level of math and English I have to start with.
I have not been purging but I am still using laxatives which sucks.
Friday, July 25, 2014
Lose Seven Pounds in Seven Days: Day Two
Wakey wakey, tired? Of course you are. That doesn't matter. Push yourself anyway. Do 100 jumping jacks, 100 sit ups, 50 squats, 50 lunges each leg, 20 push ups. Just like yesterday, this is going to be routine. I don't care if your muscles hurt or you feel like you're running on air. Jog in place or run outside for about 15 minutes, then go shower and get ready for school or work. Drink your coffee or tea, this way you don't feel so empty. If you are really that hungry, make broth with a bullion cube to take with you. It will make you feel like you're eating.
At work or school, chew gum all day. Make sure it's sugar free! You don't want all those extra calories! Are your friends hating how grumpy you are? Good. It's been proven that people eat 30% more when they eat with friends than alone. Today you are going to be more tempted. If you get offered food or a snack or even a candy, you can not accept it. Cheating is what leads to bingeing, which is FAILURE. Do you really want to lose weight, or are you just doing this to fool yourself? You are the only one who controls what goes in your mouth. You have complete and total power to say no to cookies and yes to thin. Keep drinking your tea or coffee. Have a book or something to distract yourself when you have spare time. People who eat out of boredom will be most tempted now.
When you finish with school or work and you are home, DON'T EAT OUT OF TIREDNESS. You will want to eat because you think you have no energy. Nope. Take a fruit, not a snack food, but something that grew from the earth, and eat that. You will get real energy and nutrients which will make a bigger improvement than snack foods. No, yogurt does not count as a fruit. Even if it's some sort of fruit flavor, you need real, unprocessed food. It will feel like more because your stomach is adjusting to eating less. Some people will feel more hungry after this because when you start eating, you don't want to stop. This is enough for you to function and do your work, so once you start focusing on something else, the cravings will go away.
Ding ding dinner time! Think you're more hungry than yesterday, so you get to eat more? You really only need the same amount of food. Almost forgot... do some stretches! Making yourself wait longer for food demonstrates control over your body. When you are in control, you are less likely to make irrational decisions with food, and you will probably make healthier choices. Just like yesterday, no meat, no grains. Did you have potatoes yesterday? Doesn't matter, you can't have any today. That's the only vegetable you are served/know how to make? Get experienced then. Make a salad. You can buy premixed salads at the supermarket, they even tell you how many calories are in them. Avoid dressing and croutons, they carry too many calories and if you add some seasonings with far less calories, your salad can still be flavorful. Eat slowly also, wait at least 15 seconds between swallowing your last bite and taking your next. You'll know when you really are full, even if you think it's not possible to be full because your stomach must have some how turned into a black hole because you went more than 36 hours without a cookie...
Count up your calories. How many did you have? Compare them to this chart to see what you're doing today:
1-200: 60 second wall sit, 50 push ups, 50 squats
201-400: ^ + 40 lunges each leg, 45 second plank
401-800: ^^ + five minutes of jumping jacks, 30 minutes of running
801+: ^^ + PURGE IT ALL you only made it this high by CHEATING this is not okay. You are a failure, you probably aren't even taking this seriously.
Tonight, think about how you have done so far. If you have set a goal weight, how far from it are you? Have you kept up with the amount you need to lose every day in order to meet it? You can always reconsider a more realistic goal.
Thursday, July 24, 2014
Lose Seven Pounds in Seven Days: Day One
Dangerous Pro Ana Tips and Tricks
2. The smell of bleach will probably give you a headache and you won't want to eat.
3. Put hand sanitizer on and lick your hands.
4. Eating soap gives a laxative effect.
5. You will need laxatives at some point because you will stop shitting naturally.
6. Press your stomach when you purge to get it all out.
7. Drink some water then purge some more to get it all out.
8. Shave your legs and arms and neck and even your face because you grow peach fuzz everywhere at a low weight.
9. Even if you're cold, don't wear jackets, wear shorts and t-shirts in cold weather to burn more calories.
10. You burn more calories exercising for long periods of time.
11. When you get good at purging, you can do it into bags in your room.
12. Tie a scarf around your stomach too tight so you won't want to breath.
Safe Pro Ana Tips and Tricks
2. When you eat, think about every bite.
3. Don't be afraid to be near food.
4. If you are served a plate, leave most of it untouched and only eat a little.
5. Never eat alone, those are wasted calories.
6. Don't act nervous or uncomfortable if someone talks about weight in front of you.
7. Give dummy dieting tips if the topic of diets comes up.
8. Eat salad first, without dressing, then say you feel full and don't want more.
9. Vegan foods often have less calorie dense ingredients. Be vegan.
10. Watch shows like Secret Eaters and Supersize Vs. Superskinny when you are bored.
11. Make a list of 100 things to do besides eat.
12. Go to sleep early. Get at least 9 hours of sleep.
13. Set a time you will stop eating at night and one you won't eat before in the morning.
14. Consider the time between meals to be like fasting time. Nothing enters your mouth, not the tiniest bite.
15. Wait at least 15 seconds between bites.
16. Start drinking tea or coffee (black is better but with milk is okay).
17. If you take birth control, do it in the morning and tell co-workers or friends it makes your stomach weird so you don't eat breakfast.
18. Make a Memo on your phone of tips, thinspo quotes, and even thinspo pics to look through and add to when you're bored.
19. Download phone/iPod/tablet games to play and distract you.
20. Never be free. When you are always busy, you don't notice hunger.
21. Take plenty of time to plan out your meals, even for three or more days ahead of time.
22. Have clothes which are a few sizes too small to try on and see where you are losing your weight.
23. When exercising, avoid boring, repetitive routines. You burn more calories if you have to be aware of what you're doing instead of mindlessly doing the same movement.
Thursday, July 17, 2014
How to be Ana
6) If you want binge, take one bite of the food you want and throw the rest out.