Tumbling Through the Years

This month makes the 6 year anniversary of creating this blog. That also makes 9 years of disordered behavior. I've had my eating disorder for half of my life. I'm not sure how that makes me feel but saying it like this is a shocker. It's been my personal drama, my secret, my other half for so long. When something has grown with your personality, been the core of your life, been the only thing that you can hold on to for comfort during the years where you must learn to cope as an adult, how can someone expect me to tear it out of my life? This is why everyone has "given up" at trying to make me eat or recover. I can't separate myself from my so-called illness. It's my life, it always has been.